I always knew that my life could get better, I just didn’t know how. I knew I had finally come home. That I was here. And I wouldn’t ever leave. I could finally take a deep breath and fill it with fresh air and no fumes. I could look up at the sky and see the stars and not the lights from the business I was surrounded by and did not support. I could grow a majority of my food and not have to buy the pesticide filled vegetables from the grocery store. I could also sit on the front porch and sit in complete silence and hear the deer breaking the fresh snow. I was here and I was home and I was never leaving. I don’t know why it had taken me so long.
I knew within six days I was mistaken. It wasn’t entirely the fresh air and vegetables that would make my life better. My life could get better, but I just hadn’t met Matthew yet. But the day he walked in the grocery in front of me was the day my life brightened once more. I quickly engineered a way to ‘accidentally’ bump into him in the store so I could introduce myself. Over time, I realized Matthew was everything I had ever looked for in a man. He was kind, generous to a fault and strong in his convictions. I just wish I knew when I first introduced myself that he was already married.