I knew I loved you the first time I saw you. I had to train myself to sit on my hands so I wouldn’t touch you during class. I wanted so badly to be with you and next to you that I had a hard time sleeping. I even started wearing makeup and stopped wearing sweatpants to class every day.
The day I finally worked up the courage to talk to you was one of the most nerve racking days I have ever had. You looked like you didn’t care and didn’t even notice I was alive. I had to convince myself that it wasn’t true and I was worthy of your attention. How could I get you to notice me? To get you to love me as much as I loved you? As I began to plot how I could win you, Marisa swooped in and stole you away. I’ll never forgive that coward.
She knew that I was interested and she still flew in unannounced. She is probably the one who spread the rumors about me and all the health problems I now apparently have. I knew her family well enough I could make it happen where her father wouldn’t let her date again until she had moved out of the house. And considering she was sixteen and already had a mountain of shopping debt, she would be living at home for the foreseeable future. I know how to make her life as miserable as I still am.