Love

I knew I loved you the first time I saw you.  I had to train myself to sit on my hands so I wouldn’t touch you during class.  I wanted so badly to be with you and next to you that I had a hard time sleeping.  I even started wearing makeup and stopped wearing sweatpants to class every day. 

The day I finally worked up the courage to talk to you was one of the most nerve racking days I have ever had.  You looked like you didn’t care and didn’t even notice I was alive.  I had to convince myself that it wasn’t true and I was worthy of your attention.  How could I get you to notice me?  To get you to love me as much as I loved you?  As I began to plot how I could win you, Marisa swooped in and stole you away.  I’ll never forgive that coward.  

She knew that I was interested and she still flew in unannounced.  She is probably the one who spread the rumors about me and all the health problems I now apparently have.  I knew her family well enough I could make it happen where her father wouldn’t let her date again until she had moved out of the house.  And considering she was sixteen and already had a mountain of shopping debt, she would be living at home for the foreseeable future.  I know how to make her life as miserable as I still am.